Why So Sad?
Why So Sad?
Awakening to
A wall of grief
Slipping into bed
Hugging me
Like a lover
Tightly spooning
Sadness
A state of being
Once controlling
A massive part
Of my
Daily energy
Diligently working
Not wanting
It’s depressing clutches
On me again
Suffering through
A tremendous loss
A ripping heart
Yearning to
Feel the one
So much a part
Of my
Daily life
My thoughts
Words alive
For many months
A romance
Celebrating within
The stars
Trying to
Wade through
The murky waters
Of being thankful
For the season
Of love and laughter
While honoring
The space
Of an
Unfolding tragedy within
Recently reading
A quote
“Sadness is but
A wall between
Two gardens”
Khalil Gibran
For me
Everyday holds
The process
Of appreciating
The gift
I was given
From the Universe
While allowing
Tears to flow
I no longer
Live with walls
Allowing myself
To live
To breath
To exist
In a yurt
Slowly removing
The doors
And barriers
Keeping me
From fully
Experiencing my life
Yet lived
I hike
The trails
With thankfulness
For one
So lovely
And the time
Spent together
I watch
The sunrise
Exploding every day
Thankfully accepting
The gifts
Grief and sadness
Are bestowing
Upon me
Rick Ellsmore
9.16.20
PS. The image was taken early 2019 in downtown Golden.
