Broken

I’m pondering

Broken

It’s been in

My vocabulary

My psyche

Living in

It’s persuasiveness

Daily

Google says

Broken means

Smashed, shattered, burst, fragmented,

splintered, crushed, snapped, rent, torn,

ruptured, separated, severed,

in bits, in pieces

defeated, beaten, vanquished,

overpowered, overwhelmed, subdued,

dispirited, discouraged, dejected,

crushed, humbled, dishonored,

ruined, crippled

Now there’s an

Avenger’s lineup

Of words

To get excited about

NOT!

Google also states,

When a person’s spirit is broken,

They often feel they aren’t deserving of joy,

Or they may have even totally lost

All hope or desire for happiness;

It’s a feeling of total emotional defeat.

Defeat

Do you feel

The weightiness

Of this word?

A finality

Sealing the coffin

For a lifetime

Fastened tight

From joy’s sunshine

Making the need

For the beaten

To be restored

A must

I recently

Spit out

The words

I believe I’m broken

And will never be whole

Sharing this moment

With another

Forcing me to confront

The evil lurking

Behind them

I’m realizing

A lifetime

Of shame

Embracing the concept

That I am broken

Or even could

Be broken

Taking its toll

Religion

Or often

Religious people

Perpetrating a lie

Once built upon

The notion

We are broken

And in need of

Starting over

No longer

Believing

Rather experiencing

I’m not broken

But

Have experienced

Brokenness

I will continue

To be a human

Experiencing fragmenting

As what it is

An opportunity

Forming into

Something beautiful

From what already

Lives from within

Beauty

Rick Ellsmore

4.29.19