Home

An elusive word

Conjuring up emotions

Filling minds

Smells. Sounds. Sights.

From times gone by

Longing for more

Or whatever

This illustrious word

Home

Really means

Witnessing so many

Struggle with the reality

They’ve never fully

Experienced a place

To fully let down

One filling with

Hope and kindness

Drawing out the

Poisonous venom within

Sorrow and loneliness

Unable to

Allow peace and joy

To settle in

Becoming the air breathed

Home?

Emotions flooding

Writing this word

Pushing over the

Top of my dam

Learning to allow

Them to have

Their way

No longer

Fiercely holding

The water’s surge

From having

It’s way

As a child

Home was no where

To be found

House after house

School after school

Temporary toys

Temporary shit

Never settling

Long enough

To experience

The warmth

Of home

Of community

Of family

Colorado has become

A place I called

Home

But never quite home

That small piece

Never letting go

Within my anxious

Unsettling system

In 2019

Finding a place

Specifically, alive

The fruit of

An arduous journey

Finally ripening

Experiencing a temple

Mystical and romantic

Found within

Going wherever

I go

Peacefully settling

In me

Enjoying the juice

Of home

As it runs down

A smiling

Happy mouth

Choosing to

Let it drip

Upon a

Graying hairy chin

Rick Ellsmore

1.14.20