Why So Sad?

Why So Sad?

Awakening to

A wall of grief

Slipping into bed

Hugging me

Like a lover

Tightly spooning

Sadness

A state of being

Once controlling

A massive part

Of my

Daily energy

Diligently working

Not wanting

It’s depressing clutches

On me again

Suffering through

A tremendous loss

A ripping heart

Yearning to

Feel the one

So much a part

Of my

Daily life

My thoughts

Words alive

For many months

A romance

Celebrating within

The stars

Trying to

Wade through

The murky waters

Of being thankful

For the season

Of love and laughter

While honoring

The space

Of an

Unfolding tragedy within

Recently reading

A quote

“Sadness is but

A wall between

Two gardens”

Khalil Gibran

For me

Everyday holds

The process

Of appreciating

The gift

I was given

From the Universe

While allowing

Tears to flow

I no longer

Live with walls

Allowing myself

To live

To breath

To exist

In a yurt

Slowly removing

The doors

And barriers

Keeping me

From fully

Experiencing my life

Yet lived

I hike

The trails

With thankfulness

For one

So lovely

And the time

Spent together

I watch

The sunrise

Exploding every day

Thankfully accepting

The gifts

Grief and sadness

Are bestowing

Upon me

Rick Ellsmore

9.16.20

PS. The image was taken early 2019 in downtown Golden.